Monday, June 29, 2009

A Dream...

I had a dream last night! Well as a matter of fact I had lots of dreams last night, but the only really interesting one was the one where we were at the doctor's and she was doing an ultrasound even though we were not scheduled for one! In the dream we were having a beautiful baby Girl! We could see all of her features and even a head full of beautiful black hair! I even called her by name (of course that is still a secret ;). It was wonderful, and I swear it made the somewhat restless night absolutely worth it in the long run!

Of course I have no idea yet the gender of our baby, but it is absolutely fun to have dreams about it, and this is the first one since the one where I was having twins...which we know to not be the case. So for today maybe I will have pleasant thoughts about holding a baby girl in my arms 5 and a half months from now! Who knows maybe tomorrow I will dream of a boy.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Friday, June 26, 2009

15 weeks and counting!

How far along? 15 weeks.
Total weight gain/loss: About the same as last time +5 pounds from my original weight.
Maternity clothes? Yes because I was afraid I would wake up one day without something to wear. I am still in non-pregnant shirts, but I caved on the pants!
Stretch marks? No.
Sleep: When my cat isn't using me as his personal warmer it is better, but still not the best. However, some of the dreams are outstanding!
Best moment this week: Spending cuddle time with my husband!
Movement: Not yet :(
Food cravings: How can you crave anything when you eat something every two hours!
Gender: 5 more weeks until we find out, but I really have no idea still.
Labor Signs: Thank goodness no.
Belly Button in or out? In, way in.
What I miss: My uterus NOT aching everyday of the week!
What I am looking forward to: Feeling this baby move!
Weekly Wisdom: Always bring a snack when you leave the house, even if it is only for a few minutes. You never know when you might need it to kill the nausea
Milestones: Starting to pop out a little in the belly.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Pavlov's dogs...

As I was knelt over the toilet again this morning at 4:30am dry heaving my guts out I began to wonder about Pavlov's theory.

Quick recap for those not familiar with Pavlov: Pavlov basically confirmed that you could condition animals to elicit a certain responses if presented with a stimuli. He is famous for his dogs. Every time he would feed the dogs, Pavlov would ring a bell. The natural response to feeding was for the dogs to salivate. Eventually over time the dogs learned to associate the ringing of the bell to salivation even when there was no food present.

OK so back to my main point. As I am bent over the toilet I can not help but notice that saliva is just running from my mouth uncontrollably. I have noticed it before, but there has definitely been an increase of the amount over the last couple of weeks! So naturally the only thing I could think about were Pavlov's dogs! I had to chuckle and seriously wonder if this continues for the next 5 months if I will start to salivate every time I see a toilet!

I know this sounds gross, but God you have to find humor when you look into that bowl as often as I do. It makes you contemplate many things in life. Here are a few of the following I have contemplated:

1. No matter how hard or often I scrub it, there is still a faint yellowish stain on the bowl where the water doesn't stand. Not that any normal being just going in there to use the loo would notice, but when you are face to face with it, it is another story. So I have contemplated what else to use in it to make it whiter.

2. Why in the world, for the reason listed above and many more I won't list would any animal want to drink out of it! I get it, it is cold. But you would think eventually the animal is going to realise, hey this dumb human gives me fresh water everyday...I don't need dirty toilet water. (shouldn't that fall under the conditioning mentioned above?)

3. I have seriously thought about naming my toilet. I mean there are times that I spend more time praying over it than I do praying with my husband lately. And it feels my ass everyday. Shouldn't something that feels your ass everyday and you pray over get a name?

4. Why in the world would anyone ever even consider being bulimic? Anorexic I can understand (well really I can't, but for the sake of this argument I can). I can not understand why someone would choose to retch your insides like that everyday over a dirty toilet with saliva pouring from your mouth if you had a choice to begin with. But maybe the above are signs we should be looking for...People who salivate near a bathroom, pray over toilets, and have pet names for that big piece of porcelain. Then maybe it wouldn't be such a shock. The signs are there.

5. How in the hell does pee splatter get on the underside of the toilet seat? Yes it is there, maybe not every time (which leads more to this mystery since I would think that I pee the same everyday) but everyone who has ever lifted the seat to clean knows what I am talking about. And if you don't please tell me, because I will probably never use the bathroom at your house again! And no don't try blaming it fully on the men because even when they are not around it still appears!

So these are just a few of my thoughts on the big bowl I spend to much time with lately.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Our Baby Cradle!

Wes' dad made us a beautiful baby cradle out of mapel and oak! Here are a few pictures like I promised. Inside the cradle are the beginnings of what I am sure will become baby mania in the Sutton household! The green blanket is from our Disney trip, the books and burb cloths I found at Ross, The two Pooh blankets I got on major clearance awhile ago, the Noah's Ark Blanket my mom made for me, and the Winnie the Pooh snuggly is from Jerimiah and Julie!

Belly Pictures 14 Weeks and 4 Days!

Monday, June 22, 2009


It's Monday and at any other time in my life I would be at work right now earning a paycheck and wishing I wasn't there. However, now that I am a stay at home wife and soon to be mother my days are spent mostly in the house, which trust me has enough to keep one occupied for more than 40 + hours a week! I am not complaining that I am home, as a matter of fact I am becoming quite comfortable with being a "housewife", "domestic goddess", "home maker" or whatever one chooses to call it. The problem is I don't feel like I am keeping up with my new role now that I am pregnant!

Don't get me wrong, I feel truly and utterly blessed to be given this gift from God, and although I would love to say that I am cherishing every moment, let's be real, there are a lot of parts that I could do without! Seriously if I knew there was a point in time where I could stop feeling sick to my stomach I think that I might just hit the fast forward button and call it even with the other parts I missed!

Take today for example. My goal was to clean the kitchen and pack up the donations. Alright so needless to say that I accomplished both of those tasks by 10:30 this morning (which is actually very late for me, but I was enjoying chatting with my mother in law), but I started feeling sick toward the end of the cleaning and I haven't felt much better since!

What happened to the days that I could work all day, come home and cook, clean and do a project or spend time with friends and never felt like I was behind in things that "needed to be done?" Honestly, sometimes I look back and wonder how everything got done when I was out of the house at least half the day, everyday.

Maybe that is the trick. Maybe I should just go wonder other places for half of the day and then my house and chores would stay caught up. But would they? I mean I have spent a great deal of my time on the couch over the last 2 months dealing with morning sickness so how messy am I really? It is this eternal question with me right now. Where am I going wrong? Will it ever get back to "normal?" Part of me fears that I will never feel "normal" again. That after all of this time spent lying around trying not to get sick, and all of the time with my head in the toilet (and lets just say you notice some stuff about your toilet when your head spends as much time in is as mine does!) will I ever remember what "normal" feels like? Or is this it? Is this what the next 6+ months is going to amount to?

It is frustrating and I know that I am venting here, but I always thought that I would be one of those "glowing" pregnant women you pass in the supermarket and can't wait to "be like" one day! Let's face it. I am far from glowing. Granted my face turns red still at least once a day as I am heaving over my toilet praying "this to shall pass," but that wasn't quite the "glow" I had in mind. As far as complexions go, let's just say that I have more acne now than I have had at any other time in my life! I probably have enough to spare for a few teenage girls.

And let's face it. I don't "look" pregnant yet. I just look like I sat in the all you can eat buffet line for to long. Now I have to wear pants that come up to my boobs, so they are not pressing into my gut adding to the sickness I already feel on and off everyday! The lady who sold me the cloths at the maternity store was bragging about how she was wearing maternity cloths because they were comfortable and wasn't even pregnant! OK let's be real, buy some REAL CLOTHS THAT FIT YOU! Who would want these things riding up to your boobs everyday all day with no reason behind it? Wow.

Well I suppose I should try and do something more, even though I am sure doing much of anything at this point in time with send me straight to the "porcelain god," but I really feel as if I need to get up and move around so here goes nothing. Wish me luck.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Officially out of the first trimester!!

So today marks the day that the baby and I are out of the first trimester!! Such a relieve to know that the 'riskiest' part is over. Also that morning sickness along with a few other unpleasant side affects should be on their way out the door! I am not going to say that I am m/s free, but it is much more manageable now than before. At least 90% or more of the time now I can function around the house and get out to do things around the island. So I am more than thankful for that.
The second trimester. Well from what I have read, the baby is pretty much a complete little person now. With organs, and nails to eyelashes and fingerprints. Of course there is still a long ways to go before this baby is ready to make his or her grand appearance, but it is amazing to read about how much has already taken place in such a short amount of time. The baby is now about as long as a lemon(3 and 1/2 inches) and weighs only about 1 and 1/2 ounces! The craziest part is that the baby is moving all over the place and I can not feel it! Last week at the doctor's when she couldn't hear the heartbeat with the Doppler she pulled in the ultrasound machine and there the baby was standing straight up and down with his or her shoulder facing out! Needless to say the heart was fine, she just couldn't pick up the sound with the baby in that position!
New milestone this week. My sister n law Trish and I went shopping for maternity cloths! (well she went for other things, but was very kind to come along with me!) I ventured to Motherhood maternity and bought a jean skirt (OK I know it sounds corny but it really is cute) a pair of jean Capri's, a pair of khaki Capri's, two shirts and a dress and paid less than $200.00. I wanted to look around a little more, but felt kind of queasy so called it good. Maybe later this weekend I can check out a few other places. the best part about the cloths is they should fit me through my entire pregnancy! Praying they do, then I shouldn't need much they can be used again if I ever brave having another kiddo! I might as well get my use out of them!
The next doctor's appointment is July 9th for routine checkup and some blood tests, and the big ultrasound for anatomy and growth is July 31st! If the baby decides to play along we will even be able to find out if we will be bringing home a baby boy or a baby girl! Yes we decided to find out. Wes and I believe that it will make many things easier, especially with our families on the main land and us here. Wes also hates surprises and even though I was dead set against knowing at first, the more I think about it the more excited I get! Plus who doesn't want to go shopping!! I better start saving now!
Other news, Wes' dad made us a beautiful wooden cradle, and has now 'offered' (with a little finger twisting ;) to make us a crib! I am so excited! The cradle is absolutely beautiful, and I know the crib will be just as great! So thankful for Bob's talents and his love to share them with us!
Expect more Belly pictures soon, since today is the beginning of our second trimester and we now officially have less than 6 months before this baby's 'due date.' And when I get things around I will be posting pictures of the cradle on here too, along with some other things!

Friday, June 12, 2009

How far along? We had our dating ultrasound last Mon. and Today we are exactly 13 weeks! Last week and it is on to the second trimester!
Total weight gain/loss: Well at the doctors today it said I was up 5 pounds, but I am not complaining.
Maternity clothes? Nope I can still fit into my normal tops and bottoms :)
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep: It is getting a little better. I have stayed up until 9pm a couple of nights and have actually been making it to anywhere between 345-5am!
Best moment this week: Getting the dating ultrasound and seeing our baby for the first time along with hearing the heartbeat! Glad to know all is well!
Movement: I have had fluttering, and once I swear it felt like a marble rolled across my hand, but nothing consistant.
Food cravings: I don't really have cravings yet, but I am getting my appetite back!
Gender: Ok so it is only one baby and not twins. I have felt like the baby is a girl lately, but I still say everything with male form! So who knows. We will see in 7 more weeks!
Labor Signs: Thankfully no.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: besides all the other stuff. I miss sleeping on my stomach once in awhile, and not having headaches!
What I am looking forward to: Feeling this baby move! I can not wait!
Weekly Wisdom: Relax and enjoy the experience, even the uncomfortable parts, God has a plan if you let it work itself out!
Milestones: i have gone four days without being nauseaus and without the meds for it! Hopefully morning sickness is on it's way out!

Monday, June 8, 2009

Our first ultrasound of Garbanzo!

This is our baby at 12 weeks 3 days old! (June 8, 2009). We not only found out how far along we were today, we were also given a due date of December 18, 2009! So excited. The baby was waving his/her hand and kicked to fully streatch out twice! We saw his/her brain, spinal column and heartbeat, along with the profile, and limbs! The sweetest sound today was hearing the heartbeat! We are filled will joy and very greatful that so far everything is looking good! Praise God.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

I stole this from Elaney's blog, but it is to handy to pass up!

How far along? We have no idea, but if I had to guess I would say 9-10weeks. We will offically find out on Monday!
Total weight gain/loss: I don't know where my scale is so we will have to wait until Friday's appointment!
Maternity clothes? Nope I can still fit into my normal tops and bottoms :)
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep: I miss it so much! If i could sleep past 2 am it would be a miracle...but maybe I would have to stay up later than 8pm!
Best moment this week: It is a toss up between not been as sick due to the meds, and receiving a homemade cradle from Wes' dad in our household goods shipment! I guess if I had to pick I would pick the beautiful handmade cradle!
Movement: I have muscle spasms, or gas, does that count?
Food cravings: Nothing! As in nothing sounds good and most things don't taste good.
Gender: I have no idea. But The last couple of weeks I kept having thoughts of twins, so we will see come Monday, but the chance of that is low.
Labor Signs: Thankfully no.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: I miss just feeling normal and not like I am going to get sick every moment of the day. I miss being able to sleep peacefully, and cuddeling with my husband (I get way to hot). I miss being cold, and being able to taste my food. But in the long run it will all be worth it, right?
What I am looking forward to: Our dating Ultrasound on Monday to find out how far along I am and when this baby is due to make an appearance.
Weekly Wisdom: Take the meds if you need them. Being miserable every second is not worth it.
Milestones: I wasn't as sick this week thanks to the meds, but not much else has changed over the last couple weeks.