Day 2

Today did not start out with a bang. I went to boot camp and got weighed in. I weighed exactly the same as last month, so good for not gaining
(which doesn't seem to be my problem since I never really gain...I just don't loose....I have not gained anything since having a baby if you need clarification...that is where the majority of my extra weight is still from, although I understand by now, I am obviously not doing something right or I would have lost it by now)
however, my inches were not the same. Needless to say I didn't write them down because most were almost exactly the same...but the one that pissed me off was my belly button measurement. According to her measurements I gained 3.5 inches in my belly in 4 weeks...but according to my measurements I am the same. I could tell that the tape measure was to low in the back though when she was doing the measurements, and no I am not trying to make excuses, I could just tell....so of course I am pissed because I look like a big fatty...or at least that is how I felt. I am going to have another friend remeasure me...and yes she does it for a living too, to see what she comes up with...It just doesn't make since how I can not gain weight but gain 3.5 inches in my tummy. oh well moving on
That set the mood for my morning. I was so pissy that I actually considered not joining the boot camp again next month. I mean hell, why am I paying and seeing numbers like that? After I calmed down and thought about everything however, I know it is best for me to stay in the class. I have gained a ton of strength from it and overall i just feel better going, well at least most days. Plus it is the only class around that offers child care.  That really is a big catcher. I don't have a ton of time to go at night, unless I want to skip out on the few hours a night we get to spend as a family, and I have never been a person who enjoys working out at night anyways so I think I would just dread that. Plus almost all of the classes i would like to go to are during the day...and that means a babysitter...upon which I don't have.
So my conclusion is to really work hard at some changes this next month and see how the results add up. If the numbers don't move much though I might just cry my damn eyes out. Seriously.
Today was another good day food wise.
Breakfast: 1 cup of Skim milk and 1 Special K protein bar
Snack: A few celery stalks and 1 Tbsp of peanut butter
Lunch: 2 slices low cal whole wheat bread with 2 thin slices provolone, 2  oz chicken lunch meat and 1 Tbsp of light mayo
Snack: Granola bar
Dinner: 1 Small grilled pork chop with Greek spices, 1/2 cup stuffing, and a portion of mixed frozen veges (broccoli, peas and carrots)
Snack 1.5 cups cold skim milk 1 small
Definitely within my calorie limit and on the low side of it at that with 1262

I also did the 60 min boot camp with legs and shoulders today. so that is good although i have no idea how to even begin the calorie burn count on that and the "boot camp" button on sparkpeople would give me 800 and some calories burned which I feel is just to many....so I don't know, maybe I am wrong.

I haven't got to look up an article yet, but plan to after finishing this post and well let you know tomorrow if I find anything good.

Today ended better than it started. I am determined to not let my attitude from this morning sabotage me for a week. I need to be proud of what I am doing.

The plan for tomorrow is to try to get a good run/walk in again during my son's morning nap and while the hubby is sleeping (yes he is on a different shift for a few days) so pray my kid wants a nap early before it is to hot!

Just found this article... http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutrition_articles.asp?id=1605